I had surgery 2 weeks ago to remove a lump under my right arm. It was just as hard as having surgery 2 months ago to remove that cyst from my right breast. I'm not usually a woe is me type of person. I roll with the punches. However, I did have a breakdown when I was told that I was going to need surgery to remove this lump. I just couldn't believe it. How much more am I to endure during this pregnancy? I went through somewhat of an existential crisis. You know it's bad when you're bargaining with God and then questioning whether there even is a God. It was a difficult time for me, but I'm doing much better now. The pain is virtually non-existent. I have about 85% range of motion with my arm and the wound is healing really well.

Once I got out of the hospital, I noticed that I wasn't feeling the baby move as much. I know that it's getting cramped in there for him and I may not feel as much movement as before, but there was a day when I didn't feel anything at all and I wasn't in a good place mentally, so I freaked out. They gave me percocet after the surgery for pain and I thought that maybe he was lethargic because of that and the antibiotics I was on made me very ill. I was a complete mess. Thankfully, everything turned out to be okay with baby. He's back to kicking me in the crotch and I couldn't be happier.